Many deaths

June 3, 2017

Have you become a ruin of routine?
Was it a failed fortune or a cause long lost?
Perhaps it is the way that time unfolds –
like mountain crests crumbling to its steeps.
Whatever the reason, its your turn now –
to set sail from familiar friendly waters.

Remember when you approached her?
Unsure, fragile, nervous, excited, curious.
How gently her quirks you embraced?
And how, like an ivy, her warmth grew?
From all of which, you are anxious to leave –
despite dreams that linger in thirst.

You have to go – chin up and defeated.
Sure of a purpose and wreak in emotions.
You have to go now, knowing fully well –
that things will still be, without your presence;
that you will live in refuge of wilting memories,
and will die on these shores – one of many.


– To Warszawa and co.


Old man Nomosa

April 26, 2017

In all my travels, and traveled I have,
never have I met a person like Nomosa.
He was dark, with an unkempt white beard,
and hair – like a tree that grew in heavy winds,
groomed by the moods of the day, and his teeth
crooked by age, standing in every smile.
He wore ragged clothes and roamed in naked feet.
Yet his demeanor had a duteous pride – of a man
who knew something, perhaps it was peace.

For many days I observed this sage (if you may),
There was something about his ways,
It was the same blue sky for me,
but he’d relish it with a curious impassion.
Even the water he drank, as if it gave life
to a stranded man on a lonesome island.
The berries, sour to me, were joyous to him.
It is the same reality we shared,
I was its prisoner and somehow he was free.

I tried in vain to learn his secrets,
of what he perceived and how he’d brew his thoughts.
He spoke in murmurs and like waves on a sea.
As if I could bridge those gaps and learn his leaps.
I’d tell myself, ‘perhaps time will teach me too!’,
but never have I met a person like him again, and
I live bearing the knowledge that he, he exists.
That he knew of some form of truth, a meaning,
which he gave to his life. Or did he?

Inspired by the Albert Camus’s, Myth of Sisyphus.

Chasing wonder

July 13, 2016

In every village, there be a small tribe –
out looking for newer pastures.
They, who have a knack for knowing,
of learning tongues unheard,
with their special measures,
and cautious monocles.
Set out to explore – to see the unseen,
braving darkness and defeat,
on solo adventures.

They speak of their journeys,
of trinkets from distant lands –
imploring the commoner to travel,
alluring them with amusing gifts.
Slowly and surely, they move the masses,
to richer farms and better views.
Alas! the villagers take little notice –
of the progress in their lives.
And the tribe goes on – chasing wonder.


November 28, 2015

Ever feel a deafening urge to destroy? –
To destroy something beautiful.
Well, I do and I must murder this man –
he had his chances, and fair warnings.
Call him a fool – a martyr of love, lets say.
I have my reasons, and this is necessary.
It’s not easy to kill a person.
I must plan, I must be careful,
I must break him, till vengeance is mine.

I wanted to see him suffer,
to see him defeated, lost and hopeless.
So, I roughed him into a dark space,
for a long cruel time,
where no beam of light would come.
No sound of bird, or insect be heard.
A gray beard grew on him,
he seemed only wiser.
I laughed at him. He smiled back.

I took a blunt knife and stabbed in his chest,
I punched him on his nose, he bleed more,
bruised  his face, and blued his eye.
“Do you have anything to say?”, I asked,
as I choked his throat – strangling him,
he looked into me, and I heard a “NO”.
I was killing him, and yet somehow,
I was the one that was afraid.
And as for him – he  wouldn’t fucking die.

Gustav’s music shop

October 14, 2015

By the busy market square,
around the corner of Cherub street,
was the warmly lit Gustav’s music shop.
The shop had big glass windows,
held by brown oak wood frame.
Only few people stopped to see it’s insides –
A shiny clutter of intricate instruments,
carefully arranged golden jazz.

Immersed among the instruments,
on a small chair – sat old Mr. Gustav –
with his long gray beard and his pot belly,
inspecting numbers from a worn out book,
as he always did, many times – every day.
You see, business was slow, slower than last year.
He was reminded of something, over his spectacles,
he checked the time and swiftly got up.

He picked his big bass saxophone and
opened the door – a prelude of chimes.
Now was the favorite part of his work –
The school would finish for the day,
and his audience would walk by.
In the commotion of the outsides,
From the other side of the square,
filled with energy – a new life poured in.

Taking a deep breath he tested his instrument,
it’s echoing sound turning many heads,
which quickly went back to their murmurs.
Like a small streak in the vast disorder –
little Timothee ran towards the music shop and
stopped at a distance, by the street lamp, in reverence.
Agape, twisting his legs in shyness, he waited.
Music. Vibrations. Resonance.

A melodious routine fills a void.


April 6, 2015

The turbid clouded skies slowly cleared,
opening curtains to a dark sacred night –
To the princess in her star studded gown.

Her frills flowing in a mystic dance,
announce her presence in subtle majesty,
in strokes of green, of pink, of pale blue.

In ever changing playful streams,
going from nowhere to somewhere.
Sinuous, smooth, sublime, surreal.

The twinkles wearing off her gown,
showering upon us as divine trinkets,
filling our poor souls in calm memories.

Such the melancholy of our lives –
Of beauty that cannot be possessed,
and of journeys that must end.


January 23, 2015

As fate would have it,
or perhaps, for choices he made,
he found himself on a deserted island.
The wild riches of the world he owned,
he owned them alone.

In the day, he buried in chores.
By evenings – he’d relish the Sun –
and its shimmering over the sea.
But he dreaded the nights.
For nights were dark.

And so, he kept in his cave –
a small flickering fire –
his warmth – an airy light.
He’d watch it dance and frail.
His kindle for sleepless nights.

Sometimes, it faintly made it.
A rare driftwood kept it going.
He feared it wouldn’t last forever.
And would guard it with his life,
against gusty winds and rising tides.

He thought of others like himself,
Stranded on other islands –
also alone, or alone with others.
He wondered if they too had a light,
If theirs too – was just as bright.


[Notes: Inspired by ?]


December 29, 2014

I, a traveler, often leave.
But each time as I reach my destination,
after all the jostling, the queuing,
and breaking free to exits,
in that exhausting moment –
I see strangers waiting,
with flowers, tears, hugs and kisses
to welcome their loved ones.
Skimming glimpses at exiting crowds,
by hairstyles, by gender, by clothing, by age.
Anxiously happy. Nervously smiling. Fidgeting.
Sometimes, by chance, they look into me,
for a brief blink of a moment,
searching for their love in me –
Hoping it was me, and quickly dismissing.
And in those eyes, at that instance,
I see a warmth that kindles in me –
A yearning for a place –
A place that I will reach.


October 22, 2014

I know of madness because I am an insomniac.

99 sheep, 98 sheep, 97 sheep. Sheep and sleep rhyme.
Is that why? A wordy puzzle to fool my mind?
Absorbed in self praise they are – the fools I mean,
Drowning in pools of apathy, proud and partying.
May be they know something I don’t. Who knows?
Sleep now, wake up early, and fried eggs for breakfast.
That reminds me, that new restaurant this Wednesday?
Must try something new. Double it with a movie? Hah!
But remember how we are – a sucker for company?
That one … never mind silly, I know me crazy.
Why do I do this to myself? Why am I unkind?
Relax, let go, sleep now, think of the sea, of the sky.
Of cool sands, of scents from the unsubtle winds.
What’s a sheep doing on the beach? or is it a goat?
What’s the time again – Too late to repair?
Must eat early, must eat less, must exercise,
Please! that’s one last thing I have left – a good taste.
Calm down, sleep now, all is forgotten come morning.

The itch doesn’t go away and another night burns.
Stumbling, sleepless, here we go again – into the day. Mad.


September 17, 2014
When you are flying – remember that you are FLYING!
In a metal canister! Far up above the oceans!
On a journey that, a few centuries ago would have taken,
a few generations to go.

All the equations, all the approximations,
The Science and Technology that you trust to work –
centuries of human endeavor – in a thrust will lift you off,
pushing you into skies.

Happy Flying!

To Vandith, on the occasion of his NZ trip

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